Cyril Nadar Week 2 - Gods demons, the spiders
Cyril Nadar-Week 2
9/10/25
The oldest and strongest emotion is fear, fear is what allowed humanity to be careful in the wild
the wild. It allowed them to survive, the sensation of overwhelming dread allowed our ancestors to
live and thrive until the modern age. For me, what makes me have the same overwhelming feeling of
dread are spiders.
I really hate spiders. I do not know why I hate spiders or when I started to hate them, but I know that
I will always fear them. I know that spiders do wonders for our world, eating a massive amount of pests
which allows farmers to grow more food. Their venom is used for medical purposes helping people
across the globe. The silk that they weave is incredible, it is actually stronger than steel by weight.How-
ever, just the way they look, and move absolutely terrifies me.
It is just something about how they look, 8 dead eyes, just writing these words conjures images that
give me the chills. Their movement, unnatural and jerky. I can imagine the rhythmic tapping on wood
as a spider crawls behind me. Some of them even have hair, as if their creepy eyes and legs weren't
enough. Often, when I pick up my phone, brain sabotages me and flashes of thick legged hairy spiders
on my arm make me drop my phone. There is this burning sensation in my chest, my goosebumps flaring.
Whenever there are spiders in movies or T.V shows I usually just look away and yes I did hide under my
blanket in the forbidden forest scenes in Harry Potter. The naming of these spiders are also so appalling.
The Black Widow(there used to be a nest of them in my garage), the Brown Recluse, and the Goliath Bird-
eater. A spider being named after the biblical nine feet giant who was able to challenge and entire army is
crazy. Also it eats birds, how the heck does a spider eat birds? I can imagine it slowly eating the viscera of
a poor avian like a zombie, even though that is not how they eat birds.
I am not going to put an image of a spider because I am too scared to and I keep getting a feeling
that something is crawling up my leg.
This is so relatable that this resonates in my soul. My absolute worst experience with a spider was in the middle of the night when I had woken up to go to the bathroom. I turned on the light on my phone to help me see, only what did I see? A big, fat spider on the wall right next to my bed. If it had dropped down two feet, it would've been resting on the bed that I had just been sleeping on. While I was freaking out about how to catch it, it disappeared. I looked around my room and my only other options to sleep on were on my rolling desk chair or my bean bag chair. Of course, I chose my bean bag chair and had the worst sleep of my life. I don't regret it, because that's probably the only way that I would've gotten any sleep at all. I would've spent the rest of the night just imagining the spider crawling around my bed. In fact, I felt goosebumps on my arms just as I was reading your description of this horrid animal. Although I may not look away during a movie, I will definitely not go anywhere close to a real one.
ReplyDeleteReading this made me laugh! I also hate spiders but not enough to where I run and crawl under a bed. I will bravely kill those nasty insects if I really need to and any other insect that is not deadly. The small facts you added about spiders was a great idea and interesting. It added an extra layer to your fear, reminding us that some things we fear have great value and are important! Your detailed imagery really showed me what it is that you actually feared and why you thought spiders were so scary. And also Goliath Birdeater? What even is that and why name it Goliath. It is honestly disgusting that spiders, that are way smaller than birds, can eat birds. I can’t even imagine how that even works. Your description and imagery were absolutely phenomenal and my favorite part of reading your blog. Also the humor!
ReplyDeleteHi, Cyril. Haha. I can’t relate to your fear of spiders (as long as they’re below a certain size), but I do always hate feeling like there’s a spider crawling across my face in the middle of the night. I’ve seen a zoomed in pictures of spiders and it’s always a hit or miss. Some look very cute and fluffy, but others look like spawns of Satan. Maybe if spiders were much bigger people would have hunted them to extinction (but i’m glad they aren't because, as you mentioned, they’re very good for our environment).
ReplyDeleteHi Cyril! Reading your blog was so incredibly relatable; I can't even begin to describe it. My biggest fear throughout my life has also been spiders, whether it's so tiny or big. There's also so many of them in my house; for example once I was entering the shower when all of a sudden there was a huge spider right next to me. I screamed, ran out, and made my mom remove it. This occurrence has quite literally made me do a "spider-check" every time I'm about to shower. I always feel like there's a spider crawling my leg or arm, so I completely get what you mean when you mentioned it. I although don't mind looking at them in a show or movie, but I can't stand when there's one near me.
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